Chapter Six
I toyed with the idea of
calling Penny in Belfast. At odd moments, images of her kept crawling back into
my mind and I began to realise that she’d made a bigger impression on me than
was good for either of us. But she was in Belfast and I was in LA and that was
no basis for any sort of personal relationship. Neither was it fair to build up
her expectations of something serious. In the end, I avoided making the call.
That didn’t stop me thinking about her though, and remembering that night she
gave me the best sex of my life.
Chief
Hanson called me at home one evening a couple of days after the interview with
Bray. He sounded a bit far away; tired, like he didn’t really have any guts
left in him, which wasn’t like Hanson at all.
“You
seen the paper, Henry?”
“Which
paper?”
“The LA Courier, dummy, which d’you
think? Take a look at the jobs vacant page. There’s a company called American
Interstate Airlines lookin’ for pilots.”
“There
is?” A mild surge of interest quickly gave way to a deeper feeling of
frustration. Most established airlines wanted pilots with a clean driving
licence, not an Air Force drop-out. One positive thing I got out of flying in
Bosnia was a civil pilot’s license. It wasn’t totally legitimate, it was issued
with a load of other kit when they sent me out there. But they never revoked it
and I’d been toying with the idea of finding some sort of charter work where a
guy’s personal background didn’t count too highly as long as he could fly.
There were such jobs if you dug deep enough.
Hanson
must have sensed my misgivings and his tone mellowed briefly. “You should’ve
seen it already, Henry. You need a job, y’know.”
“Guess
so. I’ll take a look, anyway. Thanks, Chief.”
“Now, Henry.” Insistence suddenly crept
back into his voice. “Take a look now.
And don’t go bumming up on this one. You ain’t that much of a catch for any
airline, you know.”
“Thanks.
And I think you’re great too.”
“That
ain’t all, boy. They’re based out at LAX Airport so I gave them a call to see
what gives. Told them I knew a stupid, brain-dead transport pilot who wanted a
job flying. Now, get this. They say they’ll see you, though God knows why, so
you just get on the phone now. And I mean now.
Talk to a gal called Terri McDolan. She’s their Personnel Manager.”
“Sounds
like you’ve been working hard on my behalf, Chief.”
“Must
be goin’ dumb in the head myself. Now just you get onto it quick before I
change my mind about givin’ you a personal reference.”
He
gave me a number and I rang the company straight away. I told them who I was
and they put me through to the woman called Terri McDolan. She spoke with a
soft Southern Irish accent, quite different to the harsh voice of the North.
Far more sensual for a start. I told her a bit more about myself, hoping Hanson
hadn’t queered my pitch too deep. She invited me over there for an interview
that same day.
I got
the impression that Hanson may have been working harder on my behalf than I had
first imagined because most companies don’t act that quickly. Terri McDolan
said she had a whole load of guys to interview that afternoon so the faster I
got there the better. It sounded a bit like a hard sell, but I let her off with
it. As the chief had said, I needed the job. On top of that, I liked the way this
company operated, fast and efficient, even if I did smell the Chief’s hand
behind it.
And
there was something else, but I couldn’t figure out what.
American
Interstate was a pretty successful company, as far as airlines go. They started
out in the seventies as a relatively small domestic carrier and now they were
expanding and opening up into the Transpacific and Transatlantic routes. They
already had two 747-400s in their long-haul fleet and three more to be delivered,
along with a couple of 767s which could be used on the North Atlantic under the
ETOPS rules. I’d flown B52s with eight engines so multi-jets were nothing new
to me. In that short spell in the Balkans I ran up a few hours flying civil Boeing
jets loaded with aid, and I just knew this was the job for me. I briefly
wondered if that was why I was able to jump the queue.
I was
wrong, of course. Hopelessly wrong.
With
some glimmer of hope, I headed straight out to the airport, arrived at Terri
McDolan’s office shortly before mid-day and introduced myself to her secretary.
Within two minutes, I was hustled into Miss McDolan’s office. No hassle of
hanging around, just straight in. That should have rung some sort of warning
bell, but it didn’t. The office was one of those antiseptic boxes decorated so
that it still managed to keep a soft feminine touch about it. Not exactly my
kettle of fish, but what the hell.
I
don’t recall exactly what I expected Miss McDolan to be like, but I was
impressed with what I saw; around mid-thirties, petite and good-looking without
being garish. A cross between Glenn Close and Michelle Pfeiffer with just the
vaguest hint of Madonna to make things interesting. One previous careful owner,
if my guess was right, and she was run-in to perfection.
She
wore a brown and cream suit that was both sedate and, at the same time,
enticing because of the trim figure hidden beneath it. There are some women you
can tell, right from the start, are cut out to go far because they’re good at
their jobs and this was one such woman. Within just a few seconds, all the body
language signs just shouted at me that this was one hell of a professional
lady.
She
rose from behind a tidy desk and shook my hand firmly but not aggressively.
“Thank
you for coming over so quickly, Mr Bodine.” The greeting was formal but without
any hint of coldness. Warm, but letting me know that she was firmly in control.
“My
pleasure.”
She
made a few chit-chat comments designed to set me at ease and she eyed me though
wide, dark green eyes. After a minute or so she waved me into a leather seat.
“You brought your full CV and the other documents I mentioned?”
I
placed them on her tidy desk, making it instantly untidy. Of course my CV was a
sanitised version which said nothing about my being kicked out of the US Air
Force, but I long ago figured that all CVs are apt to include exaggerated forms
of the truth anyway. It was part of the game. Either you play it that way or
you don’t bother to enter the game.
She
lowered herself back into her big swivel seat, crossed her legs with the sort
of decorum you’d expect of a royal princess and placed her fingertips together
in a pensive gesture. It was the church steeple stance, the one that says, “I’m
evaluating you critically so you’d better be good.”
She
waited till I was comfortable before she spoke again. “I’ll go through the
paperwork later. For the moment, tell me a bit about yourself.”
The
more I saw, the more I liked her. And I figured that if I liked her, I would
like American Interstate. Not that a job offer was anything of a foregone
conclusion, of course. There would be hundreds of jet-hungry pilots after this
post so I tried to impress her with something of the history of my flying
experience, occasionally exaggerating a small point for effect and totally
omitting all those things I didn’t want her to know about. She listened
intently, eyes never missing a move. After a while she asked me what I had been
doing since I left the Air Force and, amongst other things, I told her about my
trip to Belfast.
At
that point her eyebrows raised just enough to indicate she was interested.
“Chief Hanson said something about your sister. She died in Belfast, I believe.”
“The
chief told you that, huh?”
“Killed
by a bomb?”
“It
happens over there.” There was no point in procrastinating, so I went on and
told her a bit more about Marie. Hanson must have figured I would do that
anyway.
If I’d
just stopped to think before opening my mouth, none of it would have come out
and things might have taken a different path from there on. If I had kept quiet
about the whole Belfast business, I might never have… Well, things might have
worked out a shade safer for me. But I did tell her and she listened intently.
In the event I told her most of the story. Maybe I was simply reacting to the
way she led me on. She was clever like that, drawing out more and more of the
story.
When
I’d finished she compressed her lips and shook her head. “That’s really
terrible, Mr Bodine. I know people who’ve lost relatives in the North so I can
guess how you must feel. A friend of mine, a priest, goes over there quite
often to help people involved in the troubles and he tells me about all the
suffering people like yourself go through. Honestly, some of the stories he
comes back with would make you weep. I just hope it didn’t turn you against
Ireland.” It was, of course, pure platitude, but it was said with just enough
of an air of sincerity on the surface to make it acceptable.
“Did
this friend of yours, the priest, did he tell you what it’s really like over
there?”
“It
seemed real enough to me.”
I
grabbed at a chance opening. “I take it he knows quite a bit about what’s
happening on the ground?”
“It’s
part of his job.” She shifted in her seat, awkwardly, as if the conversation
needed to change direction. “What did you think of Ireland? The country itself,
that is.”
“Actually
I didn’t see too much of the country,” I confessed. “Too many other things on
my mind. Maybe next time.”
She
smiled and her teeth were positively glistening. “I understand. It can’t have
been easy for you.”
I suddenly
realised that for some minutes I had been mentally weighing her up against
Penny Hamilton. In most respects it was an uneven match. Penny scored high as
the sort of girl I could feel at ease with and grow to trust, even though there
seemed little chance of us ever getting things together. But Terri McDolan was
the clear winner when it came to the higher league tables. She was the sort of
woman who probably spent her days being admired by the lower orders while
saving herself for someone at the top of the ladder of success. She exuded class and, for me, that made her more an
object of distant admiration. Look, admire, but don’t touch unless you’ve got a
lot to offer in return.
The
interview went on another half hour before she glanced at her watch. “That’s as
much as I have to ask you for the moment, Mr Bodine. Are there any more
questions you’d like to ask me?”
“Yes.”
I hadn’t planned on taking a personal line with her but, on a sudden whim, I
grabbed at the opportunity with hardly a thought for what it would do for my
job application. “I know it’s probably an imposition, but would you mind
telling me more about what you learned from your friend, the priest who works
in Ireland?”
She
frowned. “This is a job interview, Mr Bodine.”
“I
know, but it would mean a lot to me.”
Her
eyes focussed on mine and I felt obliged to glance away. “Why, exactly, do you
want to know these things?” Her suspicious look was too blatant to be ignored.
I
shrugged self-consciously. “I want to know more about what actually happened to
my sister. You said earlier on that you’ve some knowledge of what’s happening
over there; things your friend told you. I thought maybe you might share some
of it.”
She
frowned again, more deeply this time. She looked like she was taken off guard
by the question, but she quickly recomposed herself and gave me a half smile.
On cue with the smile, her silky brown hair twitched round the sides of her
face. “I’ve no personal experience of the troubles. I only know what I’ve been
told. No, I’m sorry, I am rather busy
and it really isn’t the time or place…”
“It’s
very important to me,” I insisted. “Very important. Otherwise I wouldn’t ask.”
“I’m
sorry, Mr Bodine. There are other people…”
“Perhaps
we could talk over lunch?”
She
shook her head, lips compressed. Then she said firmly, “That wouldn’t be right.
It could be seen as bribery, you understand. There are others after this job.”
“This
is nothing to do with the job application. Look, if it worries you, we could go
Dutch. I only want to talk to you.” I paused and put on a solemn expression
before adding, “The fact is, Miss McDolan, the police in Northern Ireland won’t
tell me everything, and in a way I can understand that, but it just doesn’t go
down to well with someone like me. I have to find out what happened and why.
You obviously know more about the troubles than most people over here and I
need your help. Well, I need someone’s
help, that’s for sure.”
The
look I gave her must have done the trick because she nodded a shade more
positively. “Chief Hanson did warn me that you were likely to over-stretch the
mark.”
“What
else did he tell you?”
She
gave me a wry look and said, “Oddly enough, he told me I’d be doing him a
favour if I played along with you. I told him no deal.”
“What
did he say to that?”
“He
reminded me that I owe him a favour. But I suppose you knew that.”
“No.”
But it didn’t surprise me.
“A
misunderstanding over my driving licence. He told me this would wipe the slate
clean.”
“Sounds
like his idea of a joke. So, will you give me an hour of your time?”
“All
right.” It was said with an air of resignation, almost regret. “But only on
condition I pay for my own meal. No hint of bribery or corruption.”
I had
to wait an hour in the secretary’s office while Terri McDolan interviewed a
couple more candidates. I watched them go in and out and mentally assessed them
against my own pitch for the job. The result was inconclusive. Eventually, she
came out and announced that she was free for the next hour.
She
insisted on taking her own car—a rather impressive blue Merc—just in case she
was seen with me. We drove in our separate vehicles to a small restaurant. It
was about two or three miles from the airport and busy enough to avoid any
embarrassment. We found a table where we could be seen clearly from all directions,
no hint of anything underhand.
We
ordered and then got down to business.
“Okay,
Mr Bodine, I expect this is going to turn out to be rather unwise of me, but
we’re no longer in an interview situation. This is nothing to do with the
company or the job. And you can tell Chief Hanson, when you see him, that it
wipes the slate absolutely clean. I owe him no more favours. So what did you
want to know?”
“Can’t
you call me Henry?”
“No.”
Her dark green eyes softened just a mite. No more than that. “We might decide
to employ you and that would mean a strictly formal relationship between us.
Let’s keep things that way just in case, shall we?”
I
backed off. “Okay. If you say so. You’re from the south of Ireland?”
“Dublin.
I left there about four years ago and came over here to work for Aer Lingus at
their New York office. Then this job came up last year and I struck lucky.”
“You
know Belfast?”
She
nodded. “Somewhat. I’ve family there.”
“Tell
me about it.”
She
went quiet for a few seconds. Then she began to talk in a soft lilt of a voice
that put me in the mind of the country that didn’t anyway match with the
reality I’d seen over there. She talked about Ireland as it had been before the
troubles, she talked about Dublin and she talked about the hills and mountains
of the west. But no time did she talk about what I really wanted to hear, the
things that motivated the people of the north to engage in mindless killing.
She
was fantasising.
“You
make it sound like a very attractive place.”
Instantly,
her face turned sour. She knew she hadn’t struck the right tone with me. “It is an attractive place, at least that’s
how I see it. You’ll see things different but it’s still my home country we’re
talking about.”
“North
and south?”
“It’s
all one island.”
“So’s
the British mainland, but there’s three different races living on it. And they
don’t kill one another in the name of nationalism. Not yet, anyway.”
The
main course arrived about now which was probably lucky because I’d been on the
verge of opening my mouth too wide too soon. Maybe I already had. Anyhow, we
went silent while it was served. I tried not to be too obvious, but I couldn’t
help using those seconds to drink more deeply from Terri McDolan’s visual
image. She had only a hint of make-up on her skin yet it exuded the sort of
softness that made me want to reach out and touch it. This girl was in a class
of her own and she knew it. She was a top executive’s woman and then some. And
yet I couldn’t help wondering what she would be like beneath that neat-cut
suit.
Eventually,
the waiter left and we carried on the conversation.
“You
said you want to know why your sister died, Mr Bodine.”
“That’s
right. My sister was just an innocent American girl and she was blown to pieces
in the street. It could have done nothing to further the cause of peace in
Ireland, nothing to further peace anywhere. So, tell me, why does this sort of
thing happen? Why did Marie die?”
“I
suppose the short answer is, I don’t know why. Only the people who planted the
bomb know that.”
“But
you must know what motivates these people. I don’t understand the reasoning
behind any of it.”
“You
just don’t understand the Irish problem.”
“No.
Do you?”
“Certainly
not.” She grimaced. “No one really does. They pretend they do, but they don’t. That’s
why it’s a problem.”
I
didn’t like that remark: too flippant by far. If she was going to get sarcastic
on me she’d soon learn where to get off. Better people than her had learned to
avoid throwing flippancy in my direction. Some of the media guys in Sarajevo
were past masters at it, but they soon learned how far they could go with Henry
Bodine.
She
seemed to pick up my unease before she continued. “Some people turn against the
Irish because of what’s happening over there. Do you have any hate in your
heart, Mr Bodine?”
“Only for
the guys who killed Marie.”
“I
suppose that makes me feel a whole lot better. You know, Irish people can be
just like any others when you get to know them. They’re not all a bunch of
murdering psychopaths.”
“Yeah,
I heard that somewhere.” Then I shut my mouth for a moment and once again
regretted opening it without thinking first. “Sorry, I guess I shouldn’t have
said that. Over-reacting. I really am sorry. This whole darned business is
getting at me and I sometimes say the wrong thing.”
She
looked up from her plate. “Something or someone must have really got at you.
What sort of people did you meet over there in Belfast?”
“You
really want to know?”
“Surprise
me.”
“I met
a policeman called Rourke, a rather attractive stripper called Penny Hamilton
and a woman called Tessie Gidley who hires out girls to take their clothes off
in public. Oh, and a junkie called Pat Mulholland living in the Divis area.
That’s about it. That’s as much as I know about Irish people.”
I
could see she was laughing inside but she managed to keep a pretty straight
face. She hesitated for a moment before saying, “That’s not a good
advertisement for the Irish race.”
“It’s
all they had on offer.”
“A
pity. What are you doing tomorrow night, Mr Bodine?”
“You
asking me for a date?”
“No, I
am not!” For a moment I thought she was about to lose her cool and walk out on
me. “You should be so lucky. Any more talk like that and I’ll leave without
paying my share.”
“That
was my opening gambit. Remember?”
She
ignored that remark. “The point is, there’s an Irish ceilidh at a church hall
in LA tomorrow night, and I know many of the people who’re going to be there. Do
you want to come along and meet some real Irish people?”
“Irish
from Ireland?”
“Mostly
Irish American.”
“Not
the same thing.”
“Close
enough.”
I
didn’t agree but I held my tongue. “Your friend, the priest?”
“He’ll
be there.”
That
clinched it, but I didn’t let on immediately. “And you’re inviting me?”
She
shrugged her shoulders. “Go on your own if you choose.”
“But
if I go with you, you’ll introduce me to these people? Including the priest?”
“If it
helps. When you get to know them, you’ll find they can be as likeable as any
other race in America.”
I
pretended to think about it for a moment. “Are you making this offer to appease
Chief Hanson?”
“It’s
an attempt at healing the wounds in international relationships. You never
know, you might even enjoy it.”
Only
if you’re there, Miss McDolan, I told myself. “You’re on. But you didn’t answer
the question. Did Hanson put you up to this? Inviting me to this ceilidh?”
“Why
do you ask?”
“Just
a thought.”
She
never did give me a straight answer, and that said a lot.
*
I was prepared to get a
cab but, in the event, Terri drove over to pick me up which was kind of awkward
as I hadn’t told mom and dad about her. This girl was too close to home and I
never gave my parents the chance to meet girls close to home. They could so
easily get the wrong idea. They gave me some funny looks when I dived out the
door before they could think up some telling questions.
I
wondered what had happened to the reserve Terri showed in insisting we drive
separately to the restaurant the previous day. Was she relaxing her stance
because she was off-duty?
She
was wearing a casual, light green sweater and neatly plaited, dark green skirt,
but she looked just as desirable as she had in her formal suit. If anything,
even more so because I knew instinctively that this girl didn’t give her favours
easily. I wondered wildly what it took to get her turned on and that one brief
thought made me feel guilty. Deep down, I still held on to the distant images
of Penny Hamilton.
We
took off in a cloud of dust and with what felt like full reheat kicking me hard
in the ass. She knew how to use a big engine to full effect.
“What
was your sister like?” she asked when we were out on the freeway and powered
down to a steady cruise. “That’s if you don’t mind talking about her.”
I gave
myself a moment to reflect. “She was a bit strong-willed. No, that’s not true. She was very strong-willed. That’s why she went
off to Europe to do her own thing. I suppose that’s ultimately why she came to
grief.”
“Was
she mixed up in anything over there?”
“I
don’t know. Depends what you mean by mixed up.” I played this one rather cagey
to start with. Then I loosened up a bit. “She had a boyfriend and… and she was
pregnant.”
Terri
snapped a quick sideways glance. “Was it an unwanted pregnancy?”
“Probably.
Does it make a difference?”
“For a
Catholic girl, it could. It’s not like it is over here. You should know that by
now. That’s why there’s so many organisations in Ireland to help Catholic girls
in trouble.”
“Only
Catholic girls?”
“The
problem tends to be worse for them. The Catholic Church holds more power in
Ireland than any other country in Europe. The girls get no proper help with
contraception and no abortion options. Unless they run away to England.”
“And
if they stay?” I queried.
“They
get locked up in institutions they call Magdalene Laundries.” Her voice turned
distinctly cold. “As good as imprisonment, but without the need for any trial.
They’re guilty simply by being pregnant and unmarried.”
“Sounds
like you know quite a bit about it. And you don’t like it, do you?”
She
gave me a black look. “Don’t go getting the wrong idea, Bodine. I’m a devout
Catholic in most respects. But we all have one or two areas in which we
disagree with the clergy. Did you know that in Italy, including Rome, they have
the lowest birth rate in Europe and they achieve it because they make up their
own minds over contraception? In Ireland, it’s a different story. Catholics
still live in fear of the church. Absolute fear.”
“You
sound critical.”
“Maybe
I am. That’s my prerogative. Did your sister go looking for help?”
“I
don’t know. Who might she have turned to?”
“There’s
an organisation in Belfast called the Irish American Woman’s Aid Centre. Irish
because that’s the girls who get into trouble and American because that’s where
the money comes from. They help girls like your sister. Have you heard of
them?”
I
shook my head.
“Not
surprising, really. Anyway, the priest I told you about has spent some time
over there working for the Centre.”
“Really?”
My hopes began to rise. “When was he last over there?”
“Earlier
this year, some time or other.”
“You
think he might know something useful?”
“Depends
on what you want to find out.” At that moment she turned and smiled at me and,
just for a moment I got that stupid idea she might have been giving me a
come-on. “Just what are you after, Mr Bodine? What’s in your mind right now?”
I
chose not to tell her. “Can you call me Henry just for this evening?”
“It
wouldn’t be wise. I told you that before.”
“Well,
just try to ease back on the Mr Bodine, will you?”
We
pulled in behind a church hall and she used the brakes like she was touching
down a very hot jet on a very short runway. The parking lot was already
overloaded with cars and a couple of youngsters were ferrying the excess down
the road. Terri allowed them to take her Merc, which showed far more trust than
I thought wise. Dozens of people were milling around the hall and they all
seemed to know Terri well enough by sight. She introduced me to one or two, but
the names fleeted through my mind too fast to stick.
Inside,
the hall was filled with an air of jollity. Irish flags were draped from the
roof beams and a band played an Irish jig. The smell of tobacco smoke and
alcohol punched its way up into my nostrils and a general haze hung across the
room like low cloud. It seemed as realistic as a kid’s cartoon. Not like the
Ireland I’d seen.
Terri
moved about confidently, homing in on one friend after another while I followed
in her wake, not sure if I was a guest or an attendant. A few people were
dancing, but most were seated at tables round the fringes, talking and
drinking. Eventually we emerged from the throng directly in front of the band
and headed towards one of the tables. Somewhere along the way we gathered a
couple of drinks.
“We’ll
join this group,” she shouted above the noise of the band. As she sat down she
nodded me towards an empty chair. I was half way to being seated when I noticed
the man next to me was a priest. His ruddy face had been obscured behind a pint
of Guinness.
Terri
leaned across and introduced us. “Father O’Hagan, this is Mr Bodine. He’s
recently been in Ireland.”
“Mr Bodine?” The priest wrinkled his
nose.
“All
right, Henry Bodine,” she conceded.
“Friend
of yours?”
“Business
acquaintance.”
“If
you say so. Welcome to our ceilidh, Henry.” He spoke with a thick brogue which
sounded real enough. When I looked closer, I saw that he was in his early
fifties, well-built with thick greying hair. His cheeks were ruddy and streaked
with prominent veins.
“Pleased
to meet you Father.” I offered my hand and it was pumped harshly if not warmly.
“He
wants to learn more about Ireland,” Terri cut in. “I told him you were in
Belfast earlier this year and you’d be the man to tell him all he wants to
know.”
The
priest eyed me cautiously. “You’re not Irish, yourself?”
“No.”
This wasn’t the time to mention Mary O’Callaghan. That was a lever to hold in
reserve for later.
He
briefly glanced back at Terri and then he gave me an inquisitive look that
could have meant anything. “Let me just get a wee drink down me throat, Henry,
to ease the voice a mite and then I’ll be with you.”
The
black alcohol sank from view like water down a storm drain. I studied his eyes
while he was drinking and knew instinctively that his mind was in overdrive. He
slapped down the jar and wiped his lips. “Now. Ask away, my friend, what can I
tell you?”
I saw
no reason to ease into this gently. “My sister was killed by a bomb in Belfast.
I went over there to find out what happened and no one seems able or willing to
tell me all the answers. I need to find out more, find out what really happened
and why.”
I
watched the priest’s face. His eyes were grey and thoughtful, a mirror of the
way his mind was working. Once, he shifted them to give me a brief appraising
glance before suddenly growing more concerned with Terri. I hoped she wasn’t
putting her neck on the line for me.
Eventually
he said, “You don’t expect me to tell you what happened to your sister?”
Caution
had now evaporated completely into the hazy grey smoke above us. “No. But if
I’m ever going to find out what happened, what really happened, I have to get
myself clued-up on the Irish problem. And I’m pragmatic enough to know that I
don’t really understand it. Does that make sense to you, Father?”
“Hmmm.”
He surveyed his Guinness jar.
“I
want to know what the hell it’s all about over there. I mean, I’ve heard all
the crap they spout on the television about freedom from British rule, but
that’s just for public consumption. Marie didn’t die because of that, I’m sure
of it. I want to know what it’s really
all about. The real reason behind it
all. That’s the only way I’m going to understand what happened to my sister.”
The
priest slowly licked his lips. “Don’t make a fool of me, Henry. You can learn
all about Irish politics from reading books. What is it you really want to
know?”
That
caught me off guard. I thought I’d come across with more conviction than was
clearly the case. He’d suddenly left me with no alternative but to play my main
card. “You’ve been over there. Give me some names. People in Belfast I can talk
to. There’s something fishy about what happened and I aim to find out what it
is, but I need some contacts before I go back there.”
“You’re
babbling, son. What names?”
I
shrugged my shoulders, thinking fast. “I don’t know. My sister was pregnant.
Terri says there’s a Centre that helps kids in trouble. She says you worked
with them. Can you give me a contact inside the Centre? It’d be a start.”
This
time O’Hagan’s expression towards Terri was less than endearing. Maybe I’d been
wrong to jump in too quick. Wrong to start probing so deep so soon.
He
sighed, showing his teeth. “You mean the Irish American Woman’s Aid Centre.
What the hell do you want to now about that for? Besides, you could look them
up for yourself in a telephone book. You don’t need me for that. I’ll come
clean with you, son, I get the impression you’re searching for trouble. I won’t
help you get mixed up in any sort of trouble.”
I was
losing the advantage and I knew it. Desperation punched in. “What about drugs?
You worked at this Centre. Do they help girls mixed up with drugs?”
He
looked down at his empty glass and balled his fist. “Yes, of course the Centre
helps girls who use drugs.”
“Tell
me about it.”
“What
was your sister using?”
“She
wasn’t, I’d swear to it. But she was mixed up with it in some way. Her
boyfriend was a user.” A lengthy pause was broken only by the sound of the band
and the laughter that surrounded us.
Eventually
the priest shook his head. “Henry, my boy…” He sat up slowly and put his heavy
hand on my arm. “You’re babbling and you’re delving into something you don’t
really understand. For God’s sake, son, keep out of it. I’m sorry your sister
died, but maybe it’s best you put the whole thing into the past and let it
rest.” With that he stood up and turned away from us. Before I could think of a
response, the crowd had swallowed him whole.
“I
think I mishandled that, big time.” I turned towards Terri and the look on her
face told me she agreed. The atmosphere between us suddenly turned cold.
She
pushed her empty glass towards me and nodded to one side. “The bar’s over that
way. Do something useful.”
I took
the hint and slouched off to replenish the drinks. Not surprisingly, the only
whisky they had was Irish. I took the chance to down an extra one while I was
at it. When I got back to Terri she was talking to a red-faced man in his fifties,
enormous stomach hanging over his belt. I could see right away he was a
juggernaut with an attitude problem.
He’d
taken my seat.
I set
Terri’s Martini in front of her. She barely looked up and I quietly found
myself another seat at the opposite side of the table. The juggernaut was
already fully oiled. Slurred speech and glazed eyes were well evident. His
hulking frame leaned back in the seat and suddenly he looked enormous. When he
took a pause for breath and looked across at me I had this feeling of being
appraised as a potential meal. More like a small snack.
“Friend
o’ yours?” the juggernaut asked and Terri nodded. No introductions were offered
so I butted in. “Henry Bodine. Glad to meet you.”
The
juggernaut ignored my hand and turned his attention back to Terri. “Are you
sure you’re not comin’ to the meetin’? Jeez, it’s important with all this talk
of a cease fire. We can’t let it happen, you know. We can’t let them bastards
stop us now. Sure, and that guy Adams just don’t know what he’s doing. We gotta
keep on at them bastards.”
“It
might lead to peace,” Terri responded.
“Peace
be damned! We send Adams and his boyos money to keep the IRA fightin’, not to
sue for peace! They should be killin’ the bastards, not talkin’ to them!”
“What
bastards?” I fired off the question too quickly, before prudence could step in
to shut my mouth.
Juggernaut
turned his brutish head in my direction. The glazed eyes turned suddenly black.
“What bastards? I’ll tell you what bastards! The bastards who occupy Ireland.
That’s what bastards!”
“You
support the IRA?”
Juggernaut
looked at me like I was a dishy young stripper just arrived to entertain the
Iranian government. His eyes screwed up tight and his teeth glistened as he
breathed, “Is that a problem for you?”
Terri’s
face registered sudden alarm and she rose to leave, beckoning me to do the
same. There are some things you don’t discuss with drunks and she had the sense
to see it, but Juggernaut levered himself off his seat before we could move
away. He was unsteady on his feet: more drunk than was necessary to lose his
balance, and more belligerent than was good for him. I noticed for the first
time a bottle of Irish whisky in his hand.
I was
halfway to my feet when he breathed deeply and lurched towards me. “Who the
hell are you?”
“Just
a friend.”
“You’re
not Irish. You shouldn’t be here.” He hiccupped and his eyes began to glaze
over. I was losing his attention fast.
I
ploughed on anyway. “I’ve just come back from Belfast. Just a short visit, to
bring back a mutilated body.”
“Jaysus.”
Juggernaut fell back into his chair, cradling his bottle. His mind had suddenly
switched off. I looked at Terri and paused. Maybe I was tackling this wrongly.
I
leaned towards the juggernaut. “You know Belfast, do you?”
His
eyes flickered as if he had only just noticed me. “Belfast… Jaysus… I know
enough about it… all that matters.”
“You
know any of the clubs over there? Drinking clubs and the like?”
“Hah!
I know it in…” He thumped his chest. “In me heart.”
“You
mean you’ve never set foot on Irish soil in your life.” I felt angry, cheated.
And anger tends to rob me of common sense. It’s a personal failing I can’t
shake off. I stabbed a finger at him. “I know your sort. People like you sit
back and watch Native Americans trampled underfoot in their own land and you do
nothing about it. Then you bleat about what’s happening in a country you’ve
never even seen!”
A dark
figure suddenly came up behind me and planted itself between me and the
juggernaut. It was Father O’Hagan. “Henry, you’re causing trouble. We don’t like
people causing trouble at our gatherings.”
“Perhaps
you’re right.” I turned away, deflated and embarrassed. I was, after all, a
guest in the hall. “I apologise.”
Terri
moved in beside me and propelled me away towards the bar. My own annoyance was
beginning to subside, but I could feel anger still boiling up inside her,
tightening the muscles in her small hand. “You don’t act like a gentleman, do
you, Mr Bodine. You’re my guest here, remember?”
“I
remembered it. Too late though.”
“Well,
I’m sorry I brought you here. When you see your friend Chief Hanson, tell him
not to ask any more favours of me.”
“Don’t
be sorry on my account.” We came up against the bar and I tried to catch the
barman’s attention. I needed another drink. Somehow I couldn’t seem to grab his
eye and I got the impression I wasn’t meant to. I shook my head at Terri. “I
figure I’m not exactly flavour of the month round here. Perhaps I’d better
leave.”
“Yes,
perhaps you had.” Her voice was devoid of all emotion. No anger and no
sympathy. Just a bland acceptance that I was a mistake, a big mistake.
“You
given up on me, have you?”
“Don’t
be so conceited! What makes you think I had any thoughts towards you in the
first place? I brought you here as a favour to Chief Hanson. Nothing more!”
“A
favour or a way of buying yourself out of trouble?”
“Whatever
it was, it wasn’t worth it.”
“Really?
Thanks a bunch. You sure know how to give a guy a good time, Miss McDolan.”
She
moderated her voice, but her eyes remained hostile. “You’ve let me down, Mr
Bodine. I brought you here as a guest and you picked an argument. Started
trouble.”
“The
trouble was there before I arrived.”
“You
made things worse.”
She
was right, of course. It was time for me to go.
I left
her at the door of the church hall, called a cab and told the driver to head
for a bar I knew, well away from the Irish ceilidh. I felt annoyed with myself.
I had, most certainly, just blown the prospect of a damn good job. Blown it to
hell.
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